
I dont know how to explain it. Its as though someone or some nameless thing
has tuned into my desire frequency and causes interruptions to any intended plans for my
solitude or personal enjoyment.
One time I bought a computer magazine because it had state of the art articles
I wanted to read on the flight between Chicago and Los Angeles. I placed my briefcase in
the overhead compartment, sat in my aisle seat, fastened my seat belt and heard the young
woman in the middle seat say to the young man peering out the window from his window
seat. Ill ask him, I bet hell know what Im talking about.
I knew what she meant and what was about to happen again because it has
happened to me all of my life. I would not get to read my articles because this woman was
going to talk all the way from Chicago to Los Angeles. I said, Ask me what?
She turned her face toward me leaving the window seat companion still staring
out the small window and her derisive expression vanished leaving her with a pleading
countenance. I was about three years old, she began. Well, one day I strolled slowly out
the back door of our home, I looked at the grass, the fence that bordered our property, I
looked back at the place called home and thought to myself, I dont belong here. There has
been a mistake.
She stopped talking and the window companion shook his head in disbelief and smiled at me out of the corners of his eyes. He didnt manage to look directly at me, but it was plain he didnt believe the young womans words. I think he must have uttered
something, like, Oi!
I paid little attention to him but curious about the woman because she seemed
sincere, she was very pretty, engaging I could say, and I had had similar thoughts.
Well, she said, do you know what Im talking about?
Yes, I do.
She turned back to the guy in the window seat. See! I told you he would
understand. He continued shaking his head. He rolled his eyes toward the cabins ceiling. I
think he chuckled in disbelief.
Well? she asked.
Well? I replied.
How is it you know what Im talking about?
Ive had similar feelings, I said. Mostly at times when I couldnt have
something I wanted. I suppose one might say it was more like a sophisticated way of saying
either give me what I want or Im leaving home...
No, thats not it at all.
Or, I said, touching her arm in a manner meant to redeem my exhaulted
status as one who would understand.
What? she asked waiting patiently.
There are those who believe in Gods infinite wisdom taking into account
hes given us free will, we choose our own environments to incarnate in and...
Thats it! Thats it! she said raising her voice. I thought that most of the
passengers in the coach section heard her exclamations.
So if thats true, some would call it a truism, then you can change things the
way you want them. I knew I was out on a limb with that statement and didnt look forward
to being challenged as to the method of change. I didnt want to be asked, ...and for those
who believe this, how does one change the situation? She had already exclaimed she
immensely disliked living on planet Earth.
But she nodded her head and thanked me. I thought, Wow! Its over. Now I
can read my magazine. So I buried my head and pretended to be engrossed. I searched for the
first article and indulged.
I was aware that passengers were still boarding. Without looking at her, I
heard the young lady say something akin to, Well, free will or not, Im going to take you
with me. You will like other places I have in mind. She sprayed herself with an impressive
cologne. It was a cologne that women use to announce their arrival. The only way to say it,
is, It was heavenly.
She continued, Besides, I like your beautiful brown eyes. He chuckled.
And, I adore the way you smile. He laughed nervously. OK?
I never heard the young mans response. I was jostled gently by and older
woman standing next to my shoulder, in the cabins aisle. I looked up at her. We smiled at
each other. I would like to get through to my seat, she said.
I looked toward the window. The young woman and man werent sitting in
their seats. In a flash I thought I had been reading with such intensity, they had stepped into
the aisle and perhaps had gone up the stairwell to check out the lounge. The quickened pace
of my heartbeat told me something different. I didnt feel them pass me. We didnt rub legs.
They couldnt have left without me knowing. These strange things are happening again and
now.
Those seats are taken, madam, I said. I must have worn the most puzzled
expression because I, too, didnt understand the unfolding event.
They cant be taken, she said. These are my tickets, young man.
Whats the matter, honey, the man standing behind her asked.Something
wrong, Sylvia?
He wont get up to let us take our seats, she said. She cleared her
throat. She didnt sound concerned. She continued to smile at me.
In their eighties, I thought. They must be. But where are the young kids that
were here minutes ago?
I hadnt made any attempt to stand, turn or move because I knew, and I dont
know how I knew, the strength of that truth, that knowing pervaded my being, that the two
young people would be back, whatever going, returning and back meant.
Whats the problem here? a lovely, very attractive flight attendant asked.
He wont give us our seats... the woman said. She slapped her boarding
pass packet against her hand impatiently. These are our seats, she said and smiled at me. I
had seen that smile before.
But? I said.
These are their seats, sir, the flight attendant said. See here?
She showed me their boarding pass, and the seat designations matched the
empty seats.
Well, it looks like youre right, I said, stood and moved out of their way.
They bent over to keep from hitting their heads on the overhead compartment.
He went in first, saying, I always get the window seat.
Im not certain if he spoke to me or the elderly woman.
I know, she said and winked up at me as she settled into the middle seat.
She winked again.
Where have I met her, not him so much, but where have I met her before?
I remained upset, knew I was tired and decided to try and read. The captains
voice began pre-flight welcomes and instructions and I didnt hear him, but I heard the
elderly woman ask, Well, what did you think about that trip?
I think his answer was close to, Unbelievable.
I didnt look at them again. I kept on reading.

In Flight
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